It feels oddly surreal writing on this blog after so long.
A lot has changed in the almost 6 years it’s been since I committed to a published post here. We’re ever closer to the daunting age of 30 and I still feel like im drowning on dry land half the time.
I feel oddly motivated to have this blog back and to really put in the effort of documenting my thoughts and feelings – I know, shock fucking horror, she’s back again.
Over the last few months I’ve tried to take more of a break from being perpetually online. I stopped streaming and spending hours on twitch, I avoided mindlessly hanging in discord without purpose, and I’ve stopped staring at my phone like its the closest thing to a lifeline I have.
I found myself in a mental rutt. I started noticing patterns in how I felt I was using my time doing things that just took from what little reserves I had and not feeling proud or content at the days end.
I was also feeling a lot of resentment to how my worth as a person was almost dictated solely on transactional means.
In short, I was tired.
But alas, let us not spend this entire time complaining.
As I said, a lot has changed. I changed jobs. I got myself a pretty cool boyfriend. I started streaming, and then I stopped a few times in between. I made friends and I lost friends. I started and proceeded to watch the entirety of Greys Anatomy 5 times. I watched Arcane, picked up playing Valorant and TFT, AND lined Riots pocket because I have no backbone for not buying in-game cosmetics.
But saying that, a lot has stayed the same. I still start hobbies, hyperfixate on them for a time, then refuse to touch them for an undetermined amount of time. I still have debt, albeit less of it. I still stand by buying books, finding new books to add to my TBR, and reading books are 3 separate hobbies (all of which im very good at).
In order to acc get this post over the line and get it published (I’ve been writing this for the last 4 months on and off), I’ll wrap this up now.
I will be posting older book reviews I’ve written after jazzing them up a bit. I will TRY, hard hard emphasises on the try, to add posts here more often.
I will also hopefully be adding a post on a reading challenge I picked up recently and things I’ve read so far in the year – what are the faves, what are the ones we had higher hopes for, and what books are we super excited for.
TTYL
Love, Eliza x
P.S. have a picture of some type of flower
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