Self-love

Sometimes, the days really just gush past you and you’re left feeling numb to everything around you. Self-love and self-care is quite a difficult thing to comprehend if you think about it – Being there for someone, showing them affection and investing time in them, is a lot easier than having love and understanding for yourself.

I think I need to take a little time to understand who I am and what I want as a person. I’ve been lacking in the self-love department for some time and I think I need to work on that. It’s gotten to the point when people ask me how life is or how I am, I think for a solid minute and even then my answer is ‘A bit crap to be honest’.

We shall see. I’ve made some decisions recently and we will see where they takes us.

I should probably go to sleep considering I have to be up 6 hours.

Eli

To review or not to review?

As of today, 20th May, I have reached and surpassed the ’20 book’ mark in my My Goals 17/18. I feel like I would have made it to here three months ago but I have a very short attention span, so I fall into phases of almost aggressive reading, then to not even glancing at a book.

So with all achievements and things considered, I feel like I could try my hand at ‘attempting’ to write a book review. I key the word attempting in that way because, let’s be honest, I haven’t been the best at coming up with plans for this blog and actually sticking to them. I have 10 drafts saved and they are just post titles with one note in them, and I don’t really know how to continue with them. I think I will be good at this – I’m extremely opinionated and I read a variety of genres, so I probably could cover something for everyone.

A few disclaimers: I’m no review expert; they won’t be excessively lengthy; and they will be honest without spoilers.

I’ll consider it. I don’t even think this post makes sense – the heat must be getting to me. I guess I will just end this here before I embarras myself anymore.

Eli

Spoken or visual?

Lately, I’ve been thinking about reviving and rejuvenating, to a degree, this space. I want to add a spoken or visual element. I did in my younger days experiment with being a YouTuber. However, in my honest opinion, it didn’t go too great. Our videos were much to be desired and very childish – but I liked our efforts. I will give us that. It was cute while it lasted but hell if I remembered the passwords to those accounts, those videos would just disappear.

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Falling to the inevitable

So I’ve been MIA for quite some time, and there are a plethora of excuses – for one I don’t have a laptop at the moment, it’s on-lend to my cousin. But the main reason is I just don’t have much motivation. I’ve placed all my efforts into my job and my work, that by the time I come home I just want to curl up in my bed and sleep. I’ve been very hesitant about going out in a social context – if the person I’m meeting doesn’t cancel on me first, then by the time I’m supposed to leave mine to meet them I feel really drained and anxious about going. I know I’m a shit friend, but that’s beside the point. Continue reading

Mellow Mondays! Everybody Wants to Rule the World – Tears For Fears

This has always been a gem in my books – I’ve always been a massive fan of 80s music. I’m quite lucky because this is on work’s store playlist so get to listen to it almost every day – in full I have to add. I don’t seem to get sick of it; maybe it’s me but yeah – I’m trying not to ramble.

I love the meaning behind this song, and how it is often missed because of the beat. I get lost on the internet most evenings for hours, researching song meanings and how songs are connected or sampled between artists.

Recently, I was told I have an interesting and extensive knowledge of music. I mean I think everyone at work hates the fact I can name song title and artist to almost every song that plays at work, and my dad find’s it funny when we watch ‘Guess that song’ videos – He’s impressed at the fact I can name most songs after the first second.

I’m tangenting again, but enjoy!

Eli

Mellow Mondays! Lovers’ Carvings – Bibio

Only a short post today because I am shattered from work. I love this song a lot, and it is one of the main reasons I bought a kindle all those years ago – Sad I know, but I practically begged my dad to get me one. I love the fact that the song in itself is two individual tracks smooshed together, but I love both halves – the mellow feel of the first part and the upbeat rhythm in the second half.

Will update soon – I say ‘soon’ but my schedule is ram packed, plus I have an assignment due that I haven’t even glanced at.

Eli