Being sick

The feature photo is sponsored by My Window Sill. Full of plants you can forget about and a layer of dust more stable than my future.

Being sick sucks. My chest hurts. My past time of smoking has been cut to 1 pull and I’m done. I can’t breathe without sounding like I’ve run a marathon. And my body aches like I’ve done 7 rounds at the gym.

But being sick has it’s pros:

  • I made a plan of how the blog will run on a monthly basis
  • I am binge watching Insecure on sky box sets – the soundtrack is amazing
  • I finished 3 books taking me to 24 – I know 50 was my goal but I feel like I can still make it
  • I’ve created a Rachel sized mold in my bed which is quite cozy

I’m trying to make the best of laying here.

Let’s hope I get well soon

Book Club?

I’ve been toying for a while making or joining a book club. I’m currently reading The Vegetarian: A Novel by Han Kang and I’m really enjoying it, even if it is quite a dark book and not for the light-hearted.

I think having a group of people to just discuss the books with will motivate me more to read – and enjoy reading at that.

It’s just a thought. We shall see.

I’m going to type up my book reviews now and see if we can salvage anything from it.

Ciao

Day 1 and 2: Accidents, new books and settling in

(The above picture is sponsored by swimming doggo – because he was cute and just having so much fun)

I’m going to be honest for a second, why did I pick such a hot country. Everyone knows I hate, like seriously hate, any type of heat or sun. I wear black nearly everyday, I stay home when it’s sunny, I shade hop when I’m out. But here I am, middle of July, in highs of 30+ degrees weather, walking along a strip of hotels and restaurants.

The one thing hours stranded in an airport does to you, is you find new books to read. I picked up The Immortalists by Chloe Benjamin and so far it’s a good read. I may do a book review – I have 2 typed up reviews so far but I’m yet to post them. I’m waiting for the right moment.

This post is really choppy but I’m trying to put as much into it as possible. So today we saw a kid drop into the water. I saw we saw him drop, we actually saw panicked adults rush over and a man jump in to pull the kid out. Turns out he was reaching for his toy that had fallen in, became unbalanced and dropped. His brother who was only 3 inches taller than he jumped in after to save his brother but also got stuck because the ledge back onto land was quite high for him to climb back up. Cue the random man who was enjoying his lunch throwing himself in to lift the boys up safely. You could say it was paternal instinct – I mean we all hypothesize but not many people would risk themselves to save someone who isn’t related to them. When I get back I’m probably going to quit drinking and smoking and take up swimming again. Could have been a good competition swimmer but chose friends that I no longer associate with.

All in all, the most I’ve really done so far is think and get sad with what I realise. I pretty much realised I fucked myself over with bad decisions and all. But why bother dwelling on things that can’t be changed.

For me, this post has become boring and awkward so I’ll end it here. 2 more days and then I’m back. Fun, fun, fun.

Airport delays

As you can tell from the title, I’m currently sat in an airport for way longer than I should have been. 5 hours to be precise.

1st hour – Wetherspoons. One thing I will give is with their new app I don’t have to move an inch for a drink. Lazy? I know. Convenient? Fuck yes, my foot is being a ball ache so not having to walk to much is a blessing.

2nd hour – Attempted to connect to airport WiFi, but failed epically. It wouldn’t even let me check the flight information.

3rd hour – realised we had 24% battery on both our phones.

3rd hour revisited – turns out drinking about 6 litres of coffee and fizzy drinks really fills up the bladder.

4th hour – found a Starbucks. Phones charging. Sipping yet more coffee. And rewatching The Duff on Netflix. Again.

The 5th leading up and into the 6th hour is just dragging. I want to sleep however I’m scared of waking up 3 hours the wrong side of my flight.

So were off on a ‘it basically limited cash till the last day’ holiday in an attempt ‘to relax before the stresses of adult life make you cry’. But everything up until this point has been a bit of a mess.

I’m going to attempt to blog at least once a day whilst I’m abroad. But I will never guarantee it, I’m always a bit shit.

If the wait takes longer I will update along this post accordingly.

Self-love

Sometimes, the days really just gush past you and you’re left feeling numb to everything around you. Self-love and self-care is quite a difficult thing to comprehend if you think about it – Being there for someone, showing them affection and investing time in them, is a lot easier than having love and understanding for yourself.

I think I need to take a little time to understand who I am and what I want as a person. I’ve been lacking in the self-love department for some time and I think I need to work on that. It’s gotten to the point when people ask me how life is or how I am, I think for a solid minute and even then my answer is ‘A bit crap to be honest’.

We shall see. I’ve made some decisions recently and we will see where they takes us.

I should probably go to sleep considering I have to be up 6 hours.

Eli

To review or not to review?

As of today, 20th May, I have reached and surpassed the ’20 book’ mark in my My Goals 17/18. I feel like I would have made it to here three months ago but I have a very short attention span, so I fall into phases of almost aggressive reading, then to not even glancing at a book.

So with all achievements and things considered, I feel like I could try my hand at ‘attempting’ to write a book review. I key the word attempting in that way because, let’s be honest, I haven’t been the best at coming up with plans for this blog and actually sticking to them. I have 10 drafts saved and they are just post titles with one note in them, and I don’t really know how to continue with them. I think I will be good at this – I’m extremely opinionated and I read a variety of genres, so I probably could cover something for everyone.

A few disclaimers: I’m no review expert; they won’t be excessively lengthy; and they will be honest without spoilers.

I’ll consider it. I don’t even think this post makes sense – the heat must be getting to me. I guess I will just end this here before I embarras myself anymore.

Eli

Spoken or visual?

Lately, I’ve been thinking about reviving and rejuvenating, to a degree, this space. I want to add a spoken or visual element. I did in my younger days experiment with being a YouTuber. However, in my honest opinion, it didn’t go too great. Our videos were much to be desired and very childish – but I liked our efforts. I will give us that. It was cute while it lasted but hell if I remembered the passwords to those accounts, those videos would just disappear.

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