Change

This coming month for me holds a lot of change – and I don’t mean exceeding amounts of shrapnel from menial purchases. I won’t go into the finite details, but let’s just say new locations, new challenges and new people.

This past year for me has been a whirlwind of challenges – I’m trying to understand myself and how I react in different environments more so than ever. But I am excited none the less. I have high expectations to smash through all whilst maintaining some form of sanity.

It’ll be good for me – I hope.

In other news I’m almost ready to tick off one of my things to do. I’ve been pushing myself to read more. I’m only assuming it’s a subconscious coping mechanism. If I sit in silence I’ll probably find something to become emotional over. My mental state is not the cleanest and it does regularly become foggy with stupid thoughts and toxic tendencies. But lest we digress.

I’m focusing well on my degree so far. I’ve completed one assignment and am plowing through the second unit of work in preparation for the next.

I’ll end this post now. Only because I am at a loss for what to write. I apologise for the lack of content lately, I’ve just been drifting. Today’s post was inspired by Yiruma’s Stay in Memory album.

Speak soon.

Eli

1am Thoughts

It’s 1am, and I’m struggling to sleep – Might be because of the 4-hour nap I had today. Or the fact my brain is whirling 100 thoughts per minute.

I’ll probably just attempt to listen to some music and eventually drift off without realising.

Maybe I’ll explain why my sleeping is crap one day. Maybe.

I will, however, leave you with a quote I found in Tablo’s Blonote.

‘The world doesn’t revolve around me, I know. The problem is I don’t want myself in it at all.’

Goodnight/Good Morning – whichever fits the bill.

Eli

The ‘Awkward’ Train Flirting

I was going to post this last night as it was happening, but I held back temptation. I’ll explain.

So it’s 9.30, and I’ve boarded the train at South Kensington station after to going out for a dinner date and a chill walk. I’m feeling good about the journey back – it’s one of the only occasions that food hasn’t made me feel like shit, and I’m close to finishing this book. So I had my plan set, sit back, feel whelmed on food and read.

Three stops pass, and we’re pulling into Green Park, two females and a male gets on the train and have already disturbed the journey. I glanced up, and I will admit they were a very attractive and visually stunning group of people. I paid no attention after that point because I had a plan I had committed to and I was adamant to make some form of headway towards finishing this book. Continue reading

Coffee Mornings 1

I know it’s not a coffee but it’s my choice of beverage for today, so lets role with it.

I’m very tired today, I won’t lie – I was up late rereading ‘Perks of Being A Wallflower’ and realised I should probably sleep when it hit 2am.

It’s an interesting book and I like how it’s written in epistolary style.

I’m feeling an early night tonight.

See you tomorrow morning.

Eli

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