10th July

10th July

No one is actually dead until the ripples they cause in the world die away

Terry Pratchett

The 10th of July will always be such a turbulent day for me.

I celebrate the life of one of my closest friends I have the privilege of knowing. She always knows how I’m feeling and what to say to me when I’m feeling emotionally exhausted.

I also celebrate the life of someone who never really had the chance to show the world what he was made of. Its been 4 years and its still pretty raw to think about. The conversations we had and the help you gave me. I thank you everyday Lulu



Sometimes, the days really just gush past you and you’re left feeling numb to everything around you. Self-love and self-care is quite a difficult thing to comprehend if you think about it – Being there for someone, showing them affection and investing time in them, is a lot easier than having love and understanding for yourself.

I think I need to take a little time to understand who I am and what I want as a person. I’ve been lacking in the self-love department for some time and I think I need to work on that. It’s gotten to the point when people ask me how life is or how I am, I think for a solid minute and even then my answer is ‘A bit crap to be honest’.

We shall see. I’ve made some decisions recently and we will see where they takes us.

I should probably go to sleep considering I have to be up 6 hours.