Tired

This will be a short post. Only because I’m so tired right now – I never normally wear my glasses first thing when I wake up but my eyes wouldn’t adjust. I have got the worst eye bags and my body is aching to an extreme.

Le sigh. I’m in my tenth book. Pretty impressed with myself right now.

I’m enroute back to Luton for one more day of work.

The most important thing I have to mention is that on Monday I will finally be going on holiday guys. I’m really excited and expect loads of pictures.

Really sorry for not posting but I’ve been juggling work and my degree – got my first module assignment back and I passed with 100%.

When I get home tomorrow I’m going to batch plan and schedule some posts because this space has been pretty sparse.

Catch you then,

Eli

Change

This coming month for me holds a lot of change – and I don’t mean exceeding amounts of shrapnel from menial purchases. I won’t go into the finite details, but let’s just say new locations, new challenges and new people.

This past year for me has been a whirlwind of challenges – I’m trying to understand myself and how I react in different environments more so than ever. But I am excited none the less. I have high expectations to smash through all whilst maintaining some form of sanity.

It’ll be good for me – I hope.

In other news I’m almost ready to tick off one of my things to do. I’ve been pushing myself to read more. I’m only assuming it’s a subconscious coping mechanism. If I sit in silence I’ll probably find something to become emotional over. My mental state is not the cleanest and it does regularly become foggy with stupid thoughts and toxic tendencies. But lest we digress.

I’m focusing well on my degree so far. I’ve completed one assignment and am plowing through the second unit of work in preparation for the next.

I’ll end this post now. Only because I am at a loss for what to write. I apologise for the lack of content lately, I’ve just been drifting. Today’s post was inspired by Yiruma’s Stay in Memory album.

Speak soon.

Eli

Indecisive Nature Surrounding My Degree

If any of you know me in person, you will understand I can be one of the most indecisive individuals on the planet – especially when the topic is around food; what to eat, where to eat, how much to eat.

But something I have been flip flopping around for the past 3 years is choosing what to do for my degree. Now I didn’t finish college because I was a lazy ass child – my dad always tells me I’m smart but I don’t use my brain. Which sadly to say is true.

So 3 years ago I decided to start a degree in English Literature. Preparing to purchase all my books and start the pre-course assignments, I thought I was prepared. But then 3 weeks before my course started I decided that I wanted to do Maths instead. The general maths not specialising in anything in particular. So I called up and changed my degree.

I worked through I think 2 modules before having a grand, not really grand more rash, idea to study Business Management specialising in Innovation and Design. I started looking through the beginning sections of of the business side of the degree and then decided. No. Cannot be bothered with this.

So for the last year I’ve been mulling around deciding what I should do for my degree. I recently took the first part of my PBC – it’s a banking qualification for those who aren’t sure what I’m rambling on about – and passed it so decided i would buck up my issues and do something I’ll be good at. Which is maths.

So as of 3 hours ago I am enrolled to study Economics and Mathematical Sciences. This should be interesting. I’ve looked through the course material and it seems really decent so hopefully I enjoy it.

I’m of the mindset that if i don’t enjoy it i wont gt a good grade because my brain just wonders off – the many times during school when I’d start daydreaming about what I was going to watch when i got home and what I was going to eat whilst watching it.

The only reason I have this opportunity to blog today is because i’m laying down in pain in bed. Before anyone asks, no I don’t know what is wrong with me – and I don’t think the doctors do either. I have surplus 7 different tests now and nada. 

Mellow Monday! (But on a Thursday) 1979 – Smashing Pumpkins

My posting on here has been erratic to say the least. I’m looking to blog over the weekend and prepare plenty of posts for scheduling – an 8 hour hairdressers appointment will surely buy me enough time to get this sorted out, haha.

But in the time between now and then, enjoy my ‘late’ Mellow Monday of 1979 by the Smashing Pumpkins. It’s a great song and I think I’ve had it on repeat so much over the past few days.

Post soon!

Eli

Overwhelmed

So,

Originally I was working on a post about my workout routine but my brain fizzled out – The picture above was supposed to be heading that post.

I’m just feeling extremely drained at the moment. I’ve been off work since Monday and I don’t feel rested.

I don’t know if it’s because I just feel tired all the time, or if I’m just really, really lazy.

My sleeping pattern has been thrown so far off course that I don’t even want to sleep. My body is drained but my mind is buzzing. I lie awake at night for hours following the pattern on my bedsheets. Which are elephants if anyone was wondering.

All I have done, apart from decorating my room into a zen space, is craft thing. I’m trying to channel my energy into something creative – even if I have purposefully avoided this space because I just didn’t know what to say.

I’m not going to drag this out. I am going to apologise for ‘skipping’ my Mellow Monday slot – I kept getting notifications from my planner pro app to upload something, even if it’s just a link to a song that I want you guys to hear.

I’ll hopefully write and schedule a Mellow Monday before I sleep today.

Slinks back onto the floor to finish binge watching Project Runway.

Edit ~ This post was motivation by this cover. Jungkook. Please. I couldn’t wait till Monday to show you guys this. He literally.

Reading list and motivation

Hi guys!

Today we are going to talk about my way of picking books to read and my motivation for reading. Now I read a hell of a lot of books in my spare time. I just really love reading. I read on my phone, on my computer, on my way to work on my kindle, and just good ol’ paperbacks. Reading for me is such a great escape – I could be sat on the packed Victoria line in reality, but in my mind I’m investigating ‘The Maze’ or escaping the law because I’m a halfskin. Both of these references are from books by Tony Bertauski, one of my current favourite authors – but he will have his own dedicated post.

I have a really bad habit of buying books every time I walk into a bookshop and I end up with piles and piles of things I want to read but don’t have the time too or can’t decide on what to read next. And it’s not as if I read one solid genre – I jump between genres, from YA to hard hitting thrillers. I feel like it broadens my creative mindset and allows me to see different perspectives in works. I’m tangenting. 

So I’ve devised a really awesome way of picking what I read next. 

It all starts with a pack of post it notes and a pen. I start by writing all the books I’m interested in reading and write each title on a post it – I write it in the side where the adhesive is on the top. Once I’ve written them all out I flip them over and shuffle them about. Once shuffled I number all of them randomly and then place them in a pile – I try not to look at what order they have ended up in because i like surprises haha! I then place them on a large piece of card. It kind of looks like a book advent calendar by the end of it, but this means whenever I finish a book I just go the the next number on the list. This works for me as I never have the option to overthink a choice. But sometimes I forget what books I’ve bought and then I flip over a post it and see a title I’d completely forgotten and get excited all over again.

This method sometimes fails me if I have a whole series of books and the number I pick is the sequel to a book I’m still yet to read. Then I’m left to decide if I just grab book one or pick the next number along.

I follow a blog on here, https://bluchickenninja.com/ and she has this really awesome method on picking books to read next called a TBR jar. She writes all the names on little bits of paper and randomly picks them out of a jar. I really like this method as you are completely unaware of what could be next. Plus if done creatively you could have them in a really cute jar that’s you’ve decorated.

I feel like my motivation for reading comes from my little cousins. Their imagination is something else and they are always intrigued by even the smallest of things. When my cousin or myself read them books, the wonder in their eyes really pushes me to find myself like that when I’m reading a book. It might be their oblivious view on the world but we all need a bit of wonder.

I’ll add some visuals to this post a bit later but I’m going to post this now – I’m behind on my schedule already because I was sidetracked by my knitting yesterday. I never learn do I. 

I’ll also be adding a link to my good reads account once I remember the logins for it so you guy can keep up to date with what I’m reading and how I’m finding each book.

Hope you enjoy guys and find some really nifty ways to pick what you’re reading next! 

See you next post guys whereby I tell you how I decide my workout routine for my exercise sessions.

Eli