Happy New Year!

I’ve been a tad MIA – I say a tad, but it’s almost 2 weeks into the new year and this is my first post, but who’s keeping tabs.

2017 became my 3rd yeard blogging on this platform, so I decided to collate some figures in regards to my year on WordPress, and I was pleasantly surprised. Over the year, this blog received a total of 649 views from and 134 likes, 378 visitors in 35 countries.

I’m proud to be honest. Last year I upped my game when it came to blogging. I tried to put a lot more effort into my blog, I attempted new things and new features. Some worked, and some fizzled out, but in all, it was an eye-opening experience.

I won’t make this a long post – I’m currently in my bed suffering from my second cold this month and I’m feeling a bit shit. I’ll probably spend the rest of the day procrastinating revision even though I have 2 assignments due this month. But lest we digress.

I’ll schedule the first Mellow Monday for the year and start typing up a few ideas to make sure this year of blogging is even better than the last!



I was in the process of writing my Mellow Monday piece last night when I found out some troubling and sad news. Jonghyun from KPop band SHINee had died.

I won’t make this a post about how I feel and how sad I am because that becomes obsolete in the grand scheme of things. His family and brothers are mourning.

I wanted to touch on something I feel is important.

Depression, amongst other non visible illnesses, is as I said an illness. It isn’t something people can switch on an off. It isn’t a party trick or something you can contract. It is a serious condition in which many people fall victim too. There isn’t a store bought cure.

Anyone can have depression, the richest of men to the poorest. It has no target. Everyone is susceptible.

We should never play down someone’s illness. Just because it isn’t a physical blemish or easily noticeable. It does not mean it doesn’t exist.

It comes in variant shapes, sizes and has different ways of latching on.

We should all take a moment to think about who or what makes us proud. It can be a relative, a friend, someone you work with, even your favourite singer or actor.

Never expect someone to know that you are proud of them. Take the time to show praise and love where it is due.

Fame and money does not leave you free from this horrible illness.

Out of respect I will not divulge details regarding his death. But I will note something.

Jonghyun, I know that overtime I grew apart from you, your group and the music you all produced. But that never meant I was not proud, as a fan, of your achievements. You were my first bias, the first vocalist I could pick out from a song because your voice was so unique. I remember watching Hello Baby and seeing how humble and just incredible you were.

May you rest in eternal peace and know we are all very proud of you now and forever.

I won’t be posting until the new year now.

Please read what I said and absorb it’s meaning. If you find this post and need someone to talk to my doors are always open to anyone.


Life Update

So, this is a long overdue post haha. I’m really sorry for the unannounced hiatus; I was meaning to do some things but the time flew past me too quickly for my liking.

So my last post had a small mention of my upcoming holiday – first in 11 years. And I have to admit Barcelona is such an amazing place to visit. So much art and history. Just a generally beautiful city. I thank thee for that amazing coffee and tortilla sandwich which was life changing. Fun fact, my last holiday abroad was to Spain with my school. It’s not really fun but you know.

I’m in the process of finishing my second written assignment for my degree. I’ve left it so close to the wire, I’m somewhat disappointed in myself for it but what can you do. It’s due Tuesday haha. All that’s left to do is rewrite it neater and boom all done.

Tomorrow after I submit my assignment I will upload a Mellow Monday. It’s been a long time coming so stay tuned.


This will be a short post. Only because I’m so tired right now – I never normally wear my glasses first thing when I wake up but my eyes wouldn’t adjust. I have got the worst eye bags and my body is aching to an extreme.

Le sigh. I’m in my tenth book. Pretty impressed with myself right now.

I’m enroute back to Luton for one more day of work.

The most important thing I have to mention is that on Monday I will finally be going on holiday guys. I’m really excited and expect loads of pictures.

Really sorry for not posting but I’ve been juggling work and my degree – got my first module assignment back and I passed with 100%.

When I get home tomorrow I’m going to batch plan and schedule some posts because this space has been pretty sparse.

Catch you then,



This coming month for me holds a lot of change – and I don’t mean exceeding amounts of shrapnel from menial purchases. I won’t go into the finite details, but let’s just say new locations, new challenges and new people.

This past year for me has been a whirlwind of challenges – I’m trying to understand myself and how I react in different environments more so than ever. But I am excited none the less. I have high expectations to smash through all whilst maintaining some form of sanity.

It’ll be good for me – I hope.

In other news I’m almost ready to tick off one of my things to do. I’ve been pushing myself to read more. I’m only assuming it’s a subconscious coping mechanism. If I sit in silence I’ll probably find something to become emotional over. My mental state is not the cleanest and it does regularly become foggy with stupid thoughts and toxic tendencies. But lest we digress.

I’m focusing well on my degree so far. I’ve completed one assignment and am plowing through the second unit of work in preparation for the next.

I’ll end this post now. Only because I am at a loss for what to write. I apologise for the lack of content lately, I’ve just been drifting. Today’s post was inspired by Yiruma’s Stay in Memory album.

Speak soon.


1am Thoughts

It’s 1am, and I’m struggling to sleep – Might be because of the 4-hour nap I had today. Or the fact my brain is whirling 100 thoughts per minute.

I’ll probably just attempt to listen to some music and eventually drift off without realising.

Maybe I’ll explain why my sleeping is crap one day. Maybe.

I will, however, leave you with a quote I found in Tablo’s Blonote.

‘The world doesn’t revolve around me, I know. The problem is I don’t want myself in it at all.’

Goodnight/Good Morning – whichever fits the bill.


The ‘Awkward’ Train Flirting

I was going to post this last night as it was happening, but I held back temptation. I’ll explain.

So it’s 9.30, and I’ve boarded the train at South Kensington station after to going out for a dinner date and a chill walk. I’m feeling good about the journey back – it’s one of the only occasions that food hasn’t made me feel like shit, and I’m close to finishing this book. So I had my plan set, sit back, feel whelmed on food and read.

Three stops pass, and we’re pulling into Green Park, two females and a male gets on the train and have already disturbed the journey. I glanced up, and I will admit they were a very attractive and visually stunning group of people. I paid no attention after that point because I had a plan I had committed to and I was adamant to make some form of headway towards finishing this book. Continue reading