5am bus journey

On this extensive bus journey at 5am with 2 work colleagues, I’m forced into the mindset of desperation.

Can’t quite put my finger on it but I assume it’s for some form of affection -I mean working a 6 hour shift, with people hooking up and couples making out, I’m left wallowing in self pity because I can’t get that. Being single for my entire life is taking its toll on me.

I’m going to stop with this pity party because it is somewhat depressing to think of. Let’s just get back to my relaxation playlist of Two Door Cinema Club, Bombay Bicycle Club, and Asobi Sexu.

Good morning sleeping world.

Everything about nothing

My brain is forcing me to lose the motivation of blogging. Well not blogging as a whole, but meaningful blogging, something that will add value to life.

In an attempt to clear my head, I’m trying to write poetry but it’s all depressing prose (I say prose because for poetry it isn’t your static and standard poetry – barely any rhyme scheme, etc).

I’ll get back to it in some attempt to get anything good from this experience.


Fanfictions. Somewhat of a guilty pleasure of mine. Over the past few years i have read thousands (and that isn’t an exaggeration). I’ve read good ones, bad ones, well written ones, ones that mutilate and just crap over grammar, long ones, short ones – basically a lot of them. But, there are only a handful of ones that stick with me; ones that pass my mind every now and again and make me go ‘Ah that fic was a good one wasn’t it’ or ‘Nothing can top that fic’. (I know I live quite a mundane life if I sit down and read fics then think about them … don’t judge me)

There was one, very recently, that I read and I have to tell you, it was absolutely amazing. It ticked so many boxes: the plot wasn’t an overkill (it wasn’t jam-packed with 100s of plot twists or radical story sections); it was very well written (I didn’t sit there correcting the grammar in my head); plus I loved the characters and who they were based on (being a fan of B.A.P just made this fic something I could jump onto reading – but don’t let that put you off reading it, I mean you can just replace the characters in your head if it bugs you too much).

It was called ‘Ephemeral’ by Asian FanFiction author Kfanfiction. The reason I’m talking about this fic in particular and not one of the many others i have/am reading, is because it is one of the only stories I have ever read that brought me to tears but left me smiling at the same time. I’m a sap for these things.

If you have the time check it out, I’ll drop the link below, and tell me what you think ^.^ – we simply can’t let talent go unnoticed.


P.S – There were many occasions that I, myself, dabbled in writing fanfiction. I have a lot of time on my hands. I would post them here but they aren’t the most kosher XD


I was in the midst of writing up one of my film essays when I was pleasantly distracted. Distracted by some amazing news. I just recently got a job at O2 Academy Islington working bar and cloakroom. I know to some this isn’t an achievement but this is my first paid job. My first two shifts, which were Friday and Saturday, were club shifts, meaning I finished up around 4.30am (surprisingly not to bad when everyone else around you is getting drunk and having a great time and you are just aiding the fun). But non the less I am enjoying it so far ^.^.

Also, in other news, I had my first driving lesson today, and oh my gosh it was fun. I only stalled once and almost another time but I saved it, and I got onto lesson 3 material haha. Hopefully I can keeping ploughing through the material at this pace so I can get on and do my test ^.^

And last but not least, I finally got a desk. After 4 years of working downstairs and then getting a bollocking for leaving school work in the only available place, I finally have a desk. Nice Ikea desk, with a draw, side storage and enough desk space to have my laptop, extra keyboard and mouse, laptop case and my mancala board, I realised this desk is perfect yet late.

Enough for tonight, I am completely shattered so I shall sleep. I will however upload that essay tomorrow or the day after (seeing as tomorrow I am accompanying a friend to a Lower Than Atlantis fan sign) XD

Night ^.^